My fatal flaw is and will probably forever be procrastination. I do want to tackle that this year, but this year is already three months old (which is a damn quarter) and I am maybe 1% better at doing my stuff. Apparently I procrastinated stopping to procrastinate. The thing is once I do something – work, write blogposts, read etc etc – I like it. I enjoy working on things, I love being productive. I’m ambitious and enjoy hardworking (typical Capricorn here), but I struggle. A lot.
It is hard for me, to start somewhere. I’m easily overwhelmed and it’s a lot easier to just browse on my phone. Of course, the last weeks I also needed some relaxing time after that semester, the exams and working at the lab, but sometimes the relaxing might be done a lot more productive. After all, I like putting my words in thoughts on here, I like painting. I do realise it’s easier for me to get things done when I am not at home – I read a lot while staying at my grandparents, when I travel I see a lot, I visit museums and art galleries, botanical gardens and castles. It’s just staying at home doing nothing is so easy. It’s not what I want deep down, but it’s damn easy and as soon as you stop doing things (e.g. I also managed to sew a lot for a couple of days), it is hard to pick them up again. Same goes for studying and doing things for the blog.
I have this tendency to just waste two hours before I have a certain appointment, because I tell myself I cannot do anything in that time anyway. But, to be real, I could. I definitely could. I could read about 100 pages and even have time for a snack, I could edit photos, I could clean, I could, I could. But I don’t. They say realisation is the first step to improvement (it’s a saying in German at least), but I know about these things and I do not alter my behaviour. Maybe I will after that post. Maybe it’s also the bane of human existence to complain about not doing things instead of doing things.
Top – Vintage | Skirt – Vintage Ralph Lauren | Tights – calzedonia | Beret – Diefental | Shoes – Deichmann | Trench Coat – Zara (VERY old) | Necklace – By Simon Italy | Earrings – Vintage | Lipstick – kiko (Limited Edition)
Places pictured: Bench at Covent Garden | The Tower | The Royal Arcade