Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Long time no see…
As you know, I’m done wih school now. In a way, I feel very free, but at the same time not at all. I talk about being indecisive every ocnce in a while (like here or here), probably because it’s one of my main personality traits. But besides not being able to decide on something and stick with it, I’m afraid, terrified even of the future. I mean, I have a job now, but it’s likely that I’ll go to university in a year. Instead of enjoying that time, I’m in sort of a future panic mode. I’m not only shy when talking to people, in a way I’m shy of the future. I don’t walk towards the future leaving worries behind and welcoming the new day. Don’t get me wrong, I love living and I wake up happy almost every day, because you can dot so much in a day. Still, there’s a fear within – but then again I’m a worrier and always consider what could go wrong. Not necessarily pessimistic, more like a worring optimist.

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

New York was good for and to me in that way. It felt right and somehow like home. The city took my mind away from my worries. Instead I just enjoyed every minute of it. I already mentioned that I kind of have a problem with dirty & grey London, but New York wasn’t like that at all. There’s so much life in this city, it’s so vivid. So, due to this liveliness I really felt like living in the moment and focusing on the great things that happen to me at the moment. Of course, it did also help that a lot of people told me that my outfit was cute etc. (But seriously, that print is perfect!)

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

I developed kind of a repression mechanism that works quite well, so I focus on the now. You know, I don’t really want to talk about worries or problems, because compared to what other people fight that’s just petty. And when I start talking about those things I get kind of shirty, talk a lot of nonsense and worry aboout even more (unrealistic) things – it’s kind of hysteric in a way. That’s obviously nothing I want. So, when something bugs me I write it down, of course I don’t post everything, but writing really helps me. I can focus my thoughts on those issues and deal with them that way. But the way New York was, was even better, because I did not repress anything, it just wasn’t on my mind. That dress obviously reminds of trying not to worry that much.

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Camping in New York

Dress & Bow – handmade | Petticoat – handmade | Brooch – Little Moose | Sunglasses – amazon | Shoes – top or | Lipstick – besame cosmetics red

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4 thoughts on “Camping in New York

  1. Zu Beginn: tolles Kleid!
    Davon abgesehen: Leid und Probleme sind nur bedingt quantifizierbar. “Andere haben es schlimmer” ist ein Satz, der in gewisser Hinsicht stimmen mag, der aber gleichzeitig einen fiesen Mechanismus in Gang bringen kann, das eigene “Ich” herabzusetzen. Deine Sorgen und Probleme (egal wie klein oder groß) zählen nicht weniger als die Sorgen und Probleme anderer Menschen. Alle verdienen Gehör und Aufmerksamkeit und Lösungen :)
    Manchmal hilft es, von anderen ein “so geht es mir auch” zu hören und der Berg wird ein gutes Stück kleiner. Angst vor der Zukunft zu haben ist gar nicht selten. Es geht ein sehr geschützter Lebensabschnitt zu Ende, das Ziel, der Schulabschluss, ist erreicht und man steht wieder auf Punkt Null, nur ist man diesmal die Person, die Entscheidungen treffen muss. Manche wachsen schnell in diese neue Rolle, andere weniger. Das ist okay. Ignorier etwaige Bedenken und Ängste nicht, hör auf Dein Bauchgefühl. Im schlimmsten Fall: kleine Schritte und Plan B ;)
    Alles Liebe!

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    • Erstmal vielen Dank für den langen Kommentar und entschuldige bitte die späte Antwort.
      Ich werde mir das auf jeden Fall sehr zu Herzen nehmen, klingt ja auch alles sehr wahr. Wobei, wie gesagt, man kommt eben auch in so Mechanismen…
      Momentan sehe ich das auch wieder etwas lockerer, aber ab und an gibt es eben die Phasen.
      Liebe Grüße und vielen Dank!

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