Recently I realised how happy I am, in life I mean. It kind of feels like being in love with life. I thought about using the word blessed, but to me that has a really spiritual/religious tone to it and I’m agnostic, so…
Anyway, a few days back I sat in the bus smiling like a total weirdo. Because life felt so good, with my job and a lot of time off.
I did not realise how much pressure I had when I was in school. Not from friends or family, but from myself. There were quite a few days when I felt really depressed, I don’t want to say I had depression, because that would degrade people that actually suffer from depression. But I was feeling pretty bad from time to time and not that good in general. Of course, there were pretty wonderful days, but there was a lot of anxiousness and unhappiness.
Now that all that is past I feel really good and happy. I walk down the street feeling overly content about my life, everything is wonderful at the moment and there is nothing missing for me at the moment.
In a way I’ve always wanted my life to be exciting and things just happening – I actually had a plan of how to go on with life. Well, kind of. You can read about my ideas here. Now, that I have sort of a job, I don’t have to worry about that for some time. Actually, I wish I could just go on like that – work here one year and there another one – preferably in different countries all over the world. I have no idea how my life will go on, but I don’t really mind now, because I’m really glad how it is now and how happy it makes me feel.
Dress – handmade | Brooch – Little Moose | Bow – claire’s | Shoes – top or (via amazon)